Inside The mind Of a deranged lunatic..

Okay so the title was a little on the dramatic side.. I am not that deranged or a lunatic.. Life has been the same old same old.. I need change.. Moreover I need guts and courage.. but all that still wont change anything because miracles that I hope to happen will never....

to sum that up in a poetic and metaphorical way..

And when the battle was done
I was promised my sun
But with a thousand knights gone
To any kingdom I run..

No matter how hard i try, its not gonna happen.. time is not on my side at all.

On a even weirder note...this lyrics and song has been stuck in my head thanx to atie! so lets just post it up here..

Now I'm that bitch
U'll never get to uhh,
Can get what you want
so you acting like a punk
You were to fly then
so fly away now
Now I'm that bitch
And your just a clown...

(livvi franc-Now I'm that bitch)

P.s-al i cant find a suitable poem for you!! I'll keep looking though..

That's it for this supposed deranged post...

Some random post..

So life's just been brilliant, as I know that I screwed up my exams.. Well enough about that crap...

Its in the past and we shall not dwell on the past.

Anyways, like in this past few months of being in ausmat it has thought me so much more about stuff and by stuff I don't just mean chemistry, biology, maths, psychology.. I mean about myself and how I think and why I am the way I am.. It was mainly thanks to Atie and Jamie, Al.. You guys really help me find my way when I was a lost soul.. I still am but not so lost is what I mean.


Without you guys I would not have been able to survive ausmat I believe, and for that I want to thank you for being there and tolerating me!! We truly had tons of fun this past few months and i love our early morning nasi lemak sessions! Best of all the stalking and shopping we did!! And for teaching me how to play pool! Which a thanx goes out to ash for teaching me pool..


So yeah, we had tons of fun and its darn sad that soon we will be parting ways but we will keep in touch and if I make it to Perth you guys can come for holidays there and there will be free accommodation!! haha..


So I found these poems.. very short ones about love and i thought I would post them up!( dunno why.. I just thought they were sweet) dedicated to (atie and jamie)( you guys will get it)=)


All I ever wanted is in you:
Love, laughter, a pillow for my fears,
I want to give and to be given to,
So I might feel myself flow through the years,
Alive in you, the wonders of my tears..

If I could have just one wish
I would wish to wake up everyday
to the sound of your breath on my neck,
the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
the touch of your fingers on my skin,
and feel your heart beating with mine,
knowing that I could never find that feeling,
with anyone other than you...

Man.. how bored can a person be?

So now the break that I am on is meant to you know help me unwind after all the freaking days of stressing over the mocks exams.. But no, instead I find myself sleeping and lazing and watching tv and doing stuff that have zero productivity!! Like all my friends actually planned they're break and left town, went here and there and here I am stuck at home.. (not that its a bad thing)

I feel like I should have just gone to college and done some work or something so that I would not be so god damn bored..( we all know whats in college) =)
I even have nothing happening to blog about that my post is about how bored I am.. That is pretty depressing. The only good thing that came out of this break so far is that I got to catch up on my precious beauty sleep..( we all know how much i need and love to sleep)hahaha..

Au revoir et salut.. till my next post!! Hopefully it wont be mind blowingly boring as this!! hahaha..

pillow!

Whats a persons best friend?? some say dog (which is true) but I would say a pillow.. Why well a pillow is where you rest your head and it is the thing that helps get you to the places you want to go to...in other words dreamland..( my favourite place). The pillow is the one thing that comforts you when you are down or listens to your screams when you are pissed and the best part it cant judge or tell you what to do!! Sounds like a pretty darn good companion to have!!

So anyways, I slept over in Navina's house and had some really good girl bonding time..( wonder what we did) hahaha, nahh just the usual nails and tons of gossip!! that's what you get when you separate me and Navina for sometime then put us together... Talked till our mouths hurt!! that's a first for the two of us...Poor Michelle she missed out on all the action!!Hehehe.

Well that's all for now, I have no way of uploading pictures now coz I had to lose the cable to transfer.. me being the brilliant me as usual.. Haha..

p.s- this small tiny font is for Jamie because she said that my previous post the font was too huge!! so there you go!! enjoy squinting!

This may also be the reason i like pillows... i cant wait for slumber to come take over me!!=)

~every night i rush to my bed, with hopes that maybe i'll get a chance to see you when i close my eyes

i am going out of my head, lost in a fairytale, can you hold my hands and be my guide??

You can/should/are the sweet dream or my beautiful nightmare either way I dont want to wake up from you!!~

( a part of the lyrics of beyonce's sweet dreams song!)

what in the world??

I am on a short break.. yipee!!
exams are over but when my parents see my results so will my life be i guess
I had a blast spending time with atie and jamie.. =)
The 2 people that made me feel better after ( quote jamie- if a paper could rape you, then i just got raped by my exam papers)
Sounds dumb but its the truth i guess..
Break=boredom..
Why well there is nothing much at home for me...
I practically live on my own..So home is just the place where I hide to feel better..(my sanctuary)
Basically, if I could have the guts I would really go up and say whats on my mind..
Not sit around and be distracted waiting for a miracle to happen.
At the same time, family members aren't always the best people to have around.. they just don't get you at times. Or they don't respect you...
And the best was that I spent lots of money on shopping!! so I am excited to dress up soon!!
Oh right, i forgot, I have 2 songs repeatedly playing in my head
-breaking Benjamin~breath
-absent elk~sun and water
With all the time in the world, I am lazy to upload the pictures of my outing with jamie and atie!!
Never mind just check facebook..

( I dunno why my post seems so structured and rigid and weird but I guess that's what happens when you get lazy!)

A Name!

So here is a fun filled post!

What does your name mean?

where did your name come from? (as in originated)

what does it mean it other countries?

So this curious cat decided to find out.

Well the exact origination is unclear as it appears in many cultures and origins.

Deena:

In British-devine valley

American-devine

French-spear ruler

German-spear ruler

Hindu-silk

Hebrew and latin have similar meaning which is unclear as well but-Variant of Diana. Diana was a Roman goddess of the moon, hunting, forests, and childbirth, often identified with the Greek goddess Artemis.

Farsi-judge

Lavinia on the other hand means:

This is a classical name which was revived in the Renaissance period, and used in the 18th century, but has been all but abandoned for the past 2 centuries.

Its origination is from Latin,

In latin meaning is : In classical mythology; Lavinia was the daughter of King Latinus and the wife of Trojan hero Aeneas; who named the city Lavinium in her honour;Women of Rome.

Deena is not a common name but it is still in use... and Lavinia is like not in use for 2 centuries!

Cool how much you can find out about your own name.

Here is the meaning of a few other names i thought i would look up

Basheera- bringer of go0d tidings

Jamie-he who supplants

Nancy-grace

Alexandra-defender

Alyssa-rational

Narissa-sea nymph

Sahana-Some say it means 'Melody'.Others say Sahana comes from the Indian word which means, "Other name for Goddess Lakshmi; Patience.".

Navina/Navin-youthful

Suresh-Lord of the gods

Christine-follower of christ

Anil-air/wind

Davina-beloved

Danesh(its of african origination)-knowledge learning

Steven-crown

Benjamin-son of my right hand

Michael-he who resembles god( a fitting name for the King of Pop)

Aaron-mountain

amir-prince

nisha-night

Nura-light

Michelle( it is the femine of michael)-resembles god.

Kenneth-born of fire

Lucas-bringer of light

Alicia-noble

Anthony-flourishing

Serena-composed,peaceful,cheerful

Jaclyn-supplanter

Jennifer-white,fair,smooth

So here is a little weird info that may entice your minds about names. if the name is not here its coz i cant find it from the web. And all the names here were random even of people that i dont know off. Just typed in random names just to see what i got. Hahaha. Thats how bored I am!

FooD!

Hehe so i decided to spice my blog ventures into recipes..
So i was watching Asian food channel a favourite pastime of mine.. and I saw today something so mouth watering and it took like 10 minutes to make.. A dessert from Nigella Lawson recipes..
so simple to make!

1st get some marshmallow's and put them in a pan,
then take some chocolate buttons or chips and throw them in together with half a slab of unsalted butter..
Let it melt and while its melting whip some cream in another bowl with vanilla essence.
Then pour the melted chocolate/marshmallow's into the whip cream and mix..
You'll get this thick creamy chocolaty and sticky marshmallows paste which you put into small cups.
Finally grate some white chocolate over the top for decoration and colour and store in fridge..
You are all done and ready to eat this delicious dessert.

Yes the recipe has no measurements but she basically did it on instinct too..

Enjoy trying this out!!

More will come as i will be busy watching my favourite chefs and cooks making the most spectacular food! Jamie Oliver, Nigella Lawson ahh the amount of drool this people produce from their viewers....=)